32 And there were also two other, malefactors, led with him to be put to death.
33 And when they were come to the place, which is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the malefactors, one on the right hand, and the other on the left.
34 Then said Jesus, Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do. And they parted his raiment, and cast lots.
When it comes to my mother, forgiveness has been my hardest battle to overcome. It has been 15 months since I have spoken to her and I honestly can say that I don’t miss her at all. I feel almost nothing when it comes to her. She wasn’t the best mother to me and my brothers and sisters, but I do realize that she probably is fighting her own demons and I can’t be mad at her for that. Her childhood wasn’t the best and a part of me understands why she is the way that she is today.
In the Old Testament it says that we must honor our mother and father and it got me thinking about how I treat my mother. I’ve said a lot of things about her that I should’ve never said and for that I have to go into my prayer closet and ask for forgiveness.
I do realize now that honoring my mother doesn’t require for me to stick around and deal with her hate towards me. Anytime I think about talking with her, it gives me so much anxiety. It doesn’t feel right in my spirit at all. Such confusion, despair, hurt, pain, and anxiety cannot come from my Father. I truly believe that with all my heart. In order for me to be at peace, I need to love her from a distance. I need to pray for her from a distance. I do pray that one day we can come together again and live at peace with each other.
Forgiving her and moving on releases me from the jail that I’ve placed myself in. Getting in my word and understanding what I need to do and be as a Christian is my get out of jail free card.
Father, I thank you for my mother and father, I thank you for my mother bringing me into this. I also thank you for allowing to gain a better understanding of your word. I ask that you continue to show me what I need to know to become a better Christian. I pray for forgiveness for anything that I’ve done or anything that I’ve said against my mother. Please help me to show love towards anyone that I speak to and help me to shine a light so bright that others gravitate towards you.
In Jesus name I pray. Amen.